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Thecomplaining thread. For depression.

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Posted 15 September 2007 - 07:40 AM

QUOTE (Deepsycher @ Sep 15 2007, 03:11 AM) <{POST_SNAPBACK}>
I know of a true "friend" but it does not include actual people.


What does it include?
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Posted 16 September 2007 - 03:49 PM

Nevermind it will be disasterously over soon. After this I will consider it an important life long lesson. I should keep myself to myself but I fell for a situation that should have never taken place. Really it is all my fault.

I would have been a lot happier to this day if I didn't pursue people who are rude and nasty to me. Even if it mean't me being alone and not knowing about it. On the way along it just makes matters worse and it turns to water when you try and seek help to unfreeze yourself from absolute zero because I expect more that can't be given.

All I have left standing here is that Nametease thread.

In a couple of months or by next year I hope the stress will be gone for good and never to come back.

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Posted 18 September 2007 - 11:09 AM

Wow. People seriously suck. I don't know who or why, but someone unwrapped my carefully and meticulously wrapped wet clay unfinished vessels that I was working on for a project due Thursday. That means they dried out. So I can't work on them anymore. So I have to completely start over.

And I know it wasn't an accident, because seriously. They were wrapped well. WTF? Who does that, man? And the bag I used to wrap them? Gone. If they just needed a bag so badly, they could have taken the unused one right next to my wrapped pieces! GAAAAH yell.gif angry.gif pinch.gif alien.gif
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Posted 19 September 2007 - 10:08 AM

I feel like utter crap.

First, I fail to be helpful in any way to someone who asked me for help with an English paper, then I have a long, heaving, painful coughing fit right as I'm trying to go to sleep, then my sleep meds decide to fail, and despite the fact that I was exhausted, I only managed to grab about ten minutes or less of sleep every hour because my brain wouldn't shut the hell up about anything. Now I'm tired, coughing, feel like I'm going to be sick, my head hurts and I can't think properly, and now I have COMPLETELY failed to be of any help, and her rough draft is due today.

Now, which came first? The unreasonable guilt trip, or the physical sickness?

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Posted 20 September 2007 - 02:17 AM

QUOTE (Jane Sherwood @ Sep 19 2007, 09:08 AM) <{POST_SNAPBACK}>
I feel like utter crap.

First, I fail to be helpful in any way to someone who asked me for help with an English paper, then I have a long, heaving, painful coughing fit right as I'm trying to go to sleep, then my sleep meds decide to fail, and despite the fact that I was exhausted, I only managed to grab about ten minutes or less of sleep every hour because my brain wouldn't shut the hell up about anything. Now I'm tired, coughing, feel like I'm going to be sick, my head hurts and I can't think properly, and now I have COMPLETELY failed to be of any help, and her rough draft is due today.

Now, which came first? The unreasonable guilt trip, or the physical sickness?


laugh.gif Wow. You have no idea...

I'm sorry about that. It sucks.
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Posted 20 September 2007 - 04:51 AM

QUOTE (Jane Sherwood @ Sep 19 2007, 07:08 AM) <{POST_SNAPBACK}>
First, I fail to be helpful in any way to someone who asked me for help with an English paper,


Look on the bright side: You have taught that person to be more self-reliant.
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Posted 20 September 2007 - 01:10 PM

Praying to god that the scraped off component doesn't cause problems in the long run or even now.

They make those Socket 604 brackets so stiff and inflexible to pull out that someone could end up damaging the board and I don't mean by just a screw driver. It is so stiff that it bends the board.

I received my other server board and I thought it was damaged on delivery despite the quality of packaging. In fact a processor fell out of the socket because of no bracket to hold it in place. Now I felt was the time to do the swap over.

2*3.06 GHz 1mb cache Xeon processors. Much better than what I currently got.

I just hope I can get away with the component that came off near the voltage regulators. I can't see any problems with the voltages. I didn't even feel me scaping it off whilst trying to remove those horrible heatsinks.

Tomorrow I hope my drives arrive so I can set everything up.
This has been taking too long.

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Posted 20 September 2007 - 04:39 PM

Today at work I did nothing but pure dumb grunt stuff. *sigh*
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Posted 20 September 2007 - 05:16 PM

Yesterday in maths I did nothing but let everybody do the thinking for me on the board in an attempt to rush the course.

Either we have the questions with the answers in front.
Useless. They don't know what part I will be asking about when I get down to it.

Or when questions are set people are called up to do them on the board.
Before I can relaxingly produce good quality work without rushing they finish it and the class moves on.

Today I had a disagreement. I put my other similar type of maths book away because I was finally set work to do as for getting bored and unintrested with the course due to the teachers teaching style. "It is not my problem that you are getting bored." I said "It is my problem that I am carrying empty containers when I leave the class." I should have said "It might be your problem if I fail the exams or leave the class. It is your agenda." I have done maths for two years including things they may not have covered.

As for feeling degraded on how they rush the work and spoon feed me, I tried to prove a point on presenting modulus calculations which were on the third book.

"You may work faster than me"
"I can choose to do the same and make it into a race."
"Then I will get bored and loose interest in the entire subject damaging my aim in maths."
"But I have done a lot more and I have been taught NOT to rush my work and to present good quality work for four years."
"It hasn't failed all that time."
Someone said "It isn't fair on everybody else that you slow the class down."
"I rather be behind everybody else so I can enjoy it with knowing what I am doing without sacrificing the work for everybody else and leaving with nothing."

The teacher goes on about excuses for being late or not handing in work.
He said "It doesn't matter. It is like an express train."

I take him seriously.

Then he said to me when I asked if he could set me the work individually as I actually DID something useful today. He said "I have 22 other students to teach." The personal tutor said "He can't set work for one person. I HAVE a genuine concern. He gave me an excuse.

Like what he was talking about it is an excuse. It is NOT MY problem that they ALLOWED 22 people to be in a class. It is their problem. It will be their problem if they don't meet my solutions so I can perform normally like how I did with my previous tutors where I NEVER failed.

They say "my activities are not fair on the class" but it isn't fair on me too. So why should I have to suffer with problems with the "class" and put up with unaddressed concerns that are important to my success of the work and course. I am not interest by the fact they let 22 people in the class. I don't want 22 people to affect the quality of my work and my ability to work comfortably with a smooth work flow.

I was right. They DON'T want any excuses. When I want something important they are full of excuses. I slightly got my own way today leaving the class with work by choosing to work slowly and completing things.

If the tutor can set work that will fit his custom agenda that will work because I will be doing the work and learning on my own, going by his agenda then it will have to be invidually done like that otherwise it is not going to work.

He doesn't want excuses, sorry it goes both ways.

I feel it is going to turn into an argument with me leaving the class at this rate when I am planning for my future in the maths. In the same way how the teacher feels about excuses I feel the same.

I have good grounds to have my own way with the same work I did before. If I get thrown out well that is tough. I will do the exams on the NEC course I booked.

It is by that teaching method I lost interest in maths, either failed or got low marks. I don't want that to happen again. I have the right to continue my education to how I feel is appropriate to my success. It has been proven a number of times to work but that didn't include problems addressed with excuses of 22 people in a class.

My concern is getting down to the work and progressing. Not degressing to boredom.

I asked the teacher today to find out a rule.

He said we havent got there yet. "I will show you on the board."

Instead he put some student to do all the working and answer for me.

All I wanted was the rule I forgot about.

He told me after I sounded angry "Not have someone do it all for me."

Now we have something in common to my quote:
"We have the mass majority to serve to why should YOU! be any DIFFERENT!

Sorry about this but I am worried that my frustration levels will go higher, I will feel degraded and walk out upset like a long time ago.




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Posted 21 September 2007 - 07:56 AM

I don't want to go to work this weekend. sad.gif
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Posted 21 September 2007 - 12:54 PM

Checking for consistency seems to be taking forever for just eight drives in raid. Each percent reached my heart is throbbling about problems with the drives. I spent six hours installing them today and tidying up the leads.
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Posted 22 September 2007 - 10:49 PM

It seems to me that this place has descended into misery. I would hate to be a part of it. Maybe it is an illusion of mine due to my tiredness of the work I did over two days of struggling and the thought of having to clean out the room tomorrow for a long time.

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Posted 22 September 2007 - 11:06 PM

Serious Complaint: I really, really need to get counseling because this horrible Fear I have that's slowly been getting worse and worse over the years is seriously fucking up my school performance, what few personal relationships I have, and my daily life on a level it never has before. The problem is, a University counselor will not be qualified to properly diagnose my problems or prescribe me any anti-anxiety medication I will need to function like a normal human being and take the Fear away. But I can't see a proper shrink because that costs money, and I have to wait for appointments, and I have no transport, and can't ask anyone for a ride. And if I do see one and get something then there's waiting for the shit to work and risking side effects.

And I really need to do this quickly while the window is open, because once it's closed I'm going to be to terrified to say a goddamn word to ANYONE.
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Posted 22 September 2007 - 11:19 PM

At least if you go to a school counselor, he/she can open the proper doors for you. They can even help you find ways to finance these things if it needs to be done. Go to a university counselor, tell them what's up, and then voice your concerns about finances and transportation, and if they are decent at their job, they'll do their very best to help you find a way. They're at least qualified enough for that, and to help you figure out the best course of action from here.

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Posted 23 September 2007 - 12:51 AM

QUOTE (Jane Sherwood @ Sep 22 2007, 08:06 PM) <{POST_SNAPBACK}>
Serious Complaint: I really, really need to get counseling because this horrible Fear I have that's slowly been getting worse and worse over the years is seriously fucking up my school performance, what few personal relationships I have, and my daily life on a level it never has before. The problem is, a University counselor will not be qualified to properly diagnose my problems or prescribe me any anti-anxiety medication I will need to function like a normal human being and take the Fear away. But I can't see a proper shrink because that costs money, and I have to wait for appointments, and I have no transport, and can't ask anyone for a ride. And if I do see one and get something then there's waiting for the shit to work and risking side effects.

And I really need to do this quickly while the window is open, because once it's closed I'm going to be to terrified to say a goddamn word to ANYONE.


The way I deal with anxiety is by playing video games. What you need to do is find yourself a hobby, drugs wont work (in the long run) and often make you reliant on them (and as we all know, reliance on anything or anyone is a bad thing).
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