Posted 02 June 2007 - 11:43 PM
Complaint: In three words, end of year stress. Three major things contribute to this.
1. I took the SAT-2 Latin test today. I signed up half an hour before the deadline, so there wasn't time for me to file my learning disabilities extra time request thingie, which meant that I never got the extra time, and I didn't end up having time to fully translate the passages on the test- basically, I skimmed them and picked the choice that seemed marginally better than the others, but I have a sneaking suspicion that my test taking strategy was bad, and, by association, so was my score. Also, turns out I don't handle pressured situations very well. When the five minute warning was given I actually started shaking, so much that I flipped my pencil halfway across the room three times and had to go retrieve it, losing more time on the test. The teacher proctoring seemed to enjoy asking loud questions, or giving people life advice while the test was going on, which was somewhat distracting, and the door was open, so I could hear all the other proctors reading instructions for about the first half of the test, which, again, was distracting. She seemed unnecessarily frustrated with me when I didn't fill out a section of the information bubbles that she had, in fact, said not to fill out. Although I don't deny that I was "not all there today".
2. Finals. Lovely, lovely finals. The opportunity to show just how much I haven't learned. The history final, which was meant to be easy, involves writing an essay ahead of time on some aspect of the change from medieval to modern Europe covered in the course. Then, apparently, I should memorize the essay and write it on the test. This is a huge problem for me, because I have a chronic inability to form my own opinions about anything. I was planning to try for "The Rise of Christian Fundamentalism", but then I realized it was all class conflict, and then I realized I had just finished reading the Communist Manifesto. See above statement about opinions.
And, of course, how could I forget my chemistry final? Excellent, the last time in my life when I will need to worry about how to solve by the half reaction method! Of course, this requires me to know what, exactly, the half reaction method is, so that's a problem. I have the vague notion that it has something to do with conjuring hydrogen atoms out of nowhere, but I don't remember what you're supposed to do with it. Probably handle redox reactions, because I don't know what those are, either. On another, slightly unrelated note, but about chemistry, I got the essay I submitted for a science essay contest back. I was disqualified for my poor geography skills- apparently, everyone but me knows Pennsylvania is not in New England. I thought new England just consisted of cold, Eastern states.
3. Summer school application.
All right, I admit it. I've resisted filling out my summer school application too long. Basically, until two days before the cutoff date. But I did it. Then, when I checked my status, I found that my teachers had not, in fact, filled out the reccomendation forms I requested them to fill out two and a half months ago, and the first day they can is June 4- also, incidentally, the last day submissions are allowed. And even then, only one of them can. So basically, my goal at this point is to get one to fill out the form, include my college board test scores and grades, put it in an envelope, and hand it to me, at which point I will break into my Latin teacher's apartment and extort information about my intellectual potential from her, then drive both over to Harvard. They SAID to mail it, but it's almost the same thing.
"YOU'RE MISSING A PERIOD. YOU THINK IT'S FUNNY, DON'T YOU? YOU THINK IT'S FUNNY THAT YOU FUCK WITH GRAMMAR? WELL, FUCK YOU AND FUCK YOUR MISSING PERIOD! I HOPE IT MEANS YOUR SLUTTY, NON-PUNCTUATED WAYS HAVE GOTTEN YOU TEEN-PREGNANT!"